~Christmas~

I hope everyone's Christmas was wonderful. I had a great time. My weekend was filled with passing out gifts and dinner parties. Sunday was spent surrounded with family just how it should be. I think I have gained 20 pounds so Im going to be avoiding the scale for a few days :) I'm having a great time on my break except for my one little mishap but that is over and done with so no worries over that anymore. I have put in so many hours at work its been nothing close to a break, but a break from class and tests is plenty worth it. I would rather put in these hours with my job than to go back to class any sooner. Im dreading the 9th. Im not ready to go back yet but the sooner we go back the sooner its over for good :) I can't believe this is the very last semester!!!

~Merry Christmas to you too~

Why is it a few days before Christmas my personal life falls all to hell. Its been falling to hell since the beginning of December I could see it coming. The thing I learned is that when someone hurts you to the point you have to go you can't look at them much less talk to them its time to end it. I just wish it didn't have to end like this. Im not one to let go so easy but I have been hurt so much I could care less if I speak to this person for a very very long time. Some people just don't deserve someone like me in their life if they are going to take advantage and not care about me. I hate fucking selfish people those that think they have never done anything wrong a day in their life. Its taken me my entire life but tonight I know I am better and your a damn fool if you think Im going to take it anymore. Im finished being the good one in relationships holding it together when the other acts like they could care less about it. I'm tired of being so nice and getting treated like complete shit in return.

~its over~

So this is usually the time when I'm all happy and excited. Well lets just say my grade dropped 10 points from my A in TWO weeks. wtf happened...I wish I knew. It totally sucks knowing the material enough I could teach the class and then getting to the test and being like wtf did she just come up with this out of nowhere??? The last test and the final was like one big game of any minny miny moe...seriously I think I could have done better if I would have closed my eyes and just pointed out an answer. I had a 92 going into the last test and when I failed that test I got pissed but I decided I would study that much harder and do better on the final to bring my grade up. Well that didn't work out so well I made a few points above passing on the final but lets look on the bright side I passed both classes with two high Bs and

ITS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~grrrr~

There is no better way to ruin a day than to find out you failed a test by one point. I would have been mad even if I had made a C but still I did that bad. I blame it on the cold I have that seems to be turning for the worse, all I want to do is lay in bed and sleep. Somehow I have to get up and study for another test on friday that I have all of one day to study for. Then a final monday and wednesday ugh make it go away. Im so aggrivated

~sleep deprived~

I haven't had any sleep in two weeks. I guess it is to be expected at the end of the semester, and I should know that by now. Between work and school I am beat. When I do sleep at night I am back to the point of dreaming about nursing every. single. night. Dreaming about school doesn't do any good for getting rest during the sleeping hours. I wake up and feel like I haven't slept any. Its down to the last two weeks. Today I had the very last clinical for the semester wahooo...ok short celebration over back to whats coming up...next week class two days and two test one on a Friday so technically class on three days...then the next week two finals...I am ready for it to be over and to top it all off I can't get in the mood to study!