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You are Gonzo the Great.You love everyone, and still you get shot out of a
cannon on a regular basis. Oh, and you are
completely insane and have a strange
fascination for chickens.
ALSO KNOWN AS:The Great Gonzo, Gonzo the Great, Just Plain WeirdSPECIES:Whatever
HOBBIES:Tapdancing blindfolded on tapioca while balancing a
piano on his nose, backwards, five times fast.
FAVORITE MOVIE:"From Here to Eternity...with no brakes."
FAVORITE TV SHOW:"Touched By An Anvil"
QUOTE:"No parachute? Wow! This is so cool!"

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~A good day~

I know I am usually fussing all the time but today it was so different so I wanted to share my experience because it was so wonderful.

Today was a busy day in clinical. I really wasn't wanting to go today because I thought it would just be the same thing I always do, but I was wrong. When I got on the floor my usual lady was waiting to get a shower and it was too early for her shower. You see she does physical therapy from 9-9:30. The lady taking care of her obviously didn't look at anything about her before she decided to give her a shower she was just in a hurry So the great thing is my lady REMEMBERED me oh my god totally made my day This is a lady who has severe memory problems where she doesn't remember anything short term BUT SHE REMEMBERED HOW GOOD I TREAT HER. I could have just fell out in the floor with total joy. all of the stress I have been through that totally made it all worth it. THAT is why I want to be a nurse because I have already made a difference in someone's life already and SHE says I am number one in her book.

So this lady takes her in the shower in a hurry which ticked me off because she wasn't doing a good job and it started to make me mad because I don't like to see her get treated bad. I had to help give another bath so I ran her over to physical therapy and had to leave her for a while :( I like my one on one time with her and she didn't want me to leave. So it gets even better...

I had to give a bed bath today. Well another student was with me and the workers there decided they would be funny and see just how good we really are. They were laughing when they dropped us off at our room. So we walked in to see someone who couldn't move their arms AT ALL NO MOVEMENT. Legs nope no movement either. This person never said anything but kept smiling at us as we were struggling because we had not done anything that difficult before but you know what WE DID IT ALL BY OURSELVES. It felt so good to do something we were not so prepared for but we did it. Our instructor was so shocked to find out we did it without any help because that was a very hard thing to do. We put our minds to getting this person the bath they needed and we did just that. I think it is the little things in life that mean the most. Just helping someone get a bath when they are not able puts a smile on my face. I feel so accomplished today. It was also funny to see the look on those shocked workers faces when they seen that we really are THAT GOOD!

~woot~

So today I have cleaned allllll day go me! My house looks and smells so good. I have managed to read two out of three chapters on my test. I love relaxing all day it is so refreshing.

I have a 750 piece puzzle I want to get working on it is of dolphins with some obvious and some hidden. it is really cute I want to finish it so I can get it up on my wall. After that I have a 1000 piece puzzle in the shape of a whale! It looks so cute it is going to look great on my wall too. It has like all kinds of fishes and things from the ocean all on it but it still looks like a whale. When i get them finished I will have to take some pictures of them.

I am getting into collecting all kinds of things. So far I have all kinds of different vases which my favorite is from Target. It is blue that looks like water falling like rain on it so I am not so sure what to do with it yanno like what to put in it. I have lots of dolphin and underwater figurines and pictures/posters, I have these two elephants that are sitting all relaxed they are really cute. I have this plate that looks really cool it is like dolphins and fish underwater with a rainbow and it is held up by like this grass and coral...really cute. A favorite of mine is a glass humming bird eating from a purple flower with green leaves and the bird has purple wings. Now my latest collection is puzzles lol I just need some time to get them put together.

My latest addiction is the show What not to wear. w0w I love that show. Stacey and Clinton crack me up. If you haven't watched it you should because it is a great show especially if you love clothes lol Some of these people dress so damn crazy it is hilarious especially seeing their faces after they find out they have been taped for 2 weeks in these horrendous clothes

Well I am off do relax some more and maybe do a little reading

WOW I almost forgot yesterday I went to see the movie Raise your voice...OMG that movie was so good BUT it was soooooooooo sad. EVERYONE in the theatre was crying the whole time. It was such a moving movie they did a great job making that movie convey all the emotions. I haven't seen a movie that good in a long time and it makes me sad not many people are going to see it because it is so great. SO go see that movie you won't regret it!

~so its not supposed to be easy~

So I wonder why I thought it would be easy to become a nurse. I mean I am working with someone's life WHY would it be easy...So this is what I have learned in the past week...

1. It isn't supposed to be easy
2. It takes HARD work and dedication that I sometimes lack
3. I need to think like a professi0nal not like the 20 year old that I am
4. It IS going to be FRUSTRATING
5. Perfection isn't always a must
6. Take one day at a time WITH some time for studying
7. Think positive or it is just going to be hell
8. I learned to iron wahooo
9. Studying sometimes can't help get an A on the hardest test EVER
10. If you know just enough to be confused it is a bad thing....shame on me

This week I had my second clinical...my previst went soooooooo wonderful and the clinical did too wahoooooooo

On tuesday I made one point above passing on my test. I was so frustrated after that but on thursday when I had a good clinical day I was happy

I have a lot of work to do so I need to stay motivated I hope I can do it :)

I have two days off wahoooooooooooooooooooo

~hurting~

have I said lately how much I HATE nursing. So the first day of clinicals my instructor chews my ass for no reason I could just scream...after that day I had the worst fucking migrane and I haven't had one for THREE years I just came home and went to bed I was just so fucking pissed

I think this bitch is out to fail me and I don't give a damn anymore I am tired of dealing with her shit...I REALLY feel like just saying fuck it and telling them to kiss my ass. I think the only things that are stopping me is all of the fucking thousands of dollars I have spent in this shit and how close I am to being finished.

So today I had another test I think they just pull these questions out of their ass because they are nowhere in the books and have nothing to do with things in the books...I made ONE point above passing and I studied for FUCKING HOURS UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I COULD FUCKING SCREAM I HATEEEEEEEEEEEE THIS SHIT

I just have so much hate in me and I haven't had a hate like this before every time I start to think it is getting better something else will happen and I will just hate it more

Why does it have to be this hard???

Why do they make things so difficult???

Why are they such BITCHES about things????????

ugh December is a long time away I hope I can make it through this hell they are putting us through

this post doesn't show how I feel inside I think I am starting to get depressed over this