~4 months to go~

S0o0o I am not so good at posting on a regular basis...I am going to work on this really I am...I promise! I made it through the first two weeks! OMG it is pretty hard. I have TONS of reading to do and when I say tons I mean hundreds of pages for each class. I am not a fan of reading so this isn't too nice. So far I have kept up and read EVERYthing. We have about 10 books for two classes. In our reading each book I notice I am reading the SAME EXACT THING in EVERY book!!!!! I wonder if someone just decided to cheat and say what the hell I will just change two words from this book and call this my own shit and make tons of money at broke ass students expense. Do these professors think we are so stupid that we need to read things ten thousand times to understand things...maybe so...some of the people will scare me if they ever pass this program. I would tell them to get the hell out of my room if they ever came in to be my nurse...I really hope they get better.
I spend about 8 hours in class on one day and 3 another...then 7 another day. Any other time I have goes to reading. This poses an issue for me. It takes all of my time to read the books. I am not sure what to do about studying. I don't know what to do because I can't just the pull time out of my ass, and I need at least a few hours to sleep or I am not a happy person.
Even though it is SO much work and hard I enjoy nursing. I don't think I have realized how close I am to actually being an RN working somewhere helping people...*thinks* I can imagine what it is going to feel like going in to work that first day...seeing my first patient...and feeling such a joy knowing I am helping them. I hope my first day is as enjoyable and rewarding as I hope it is going to feel.